My next chapter of my book, chapter 25, deals with insecurities. Have you ever been afraid to start something that you know you should be doing? Like Jonah in the Bible, we tend to want to stay in our comfort zone and not take that first step. Especially when it is clear that God wants us to do something. We are afraid to branch out either because we think we might fail or fall flat on our faces or in my case think I was not smart enough and people will only laugh at me.
In my book I talk about taking that first step when I knew that it was time to further my education. I was very insecure and afraid. This is the reason I dropped out at 16. I thought I was not smart enough to go on. God showed me in a big way that I could do it. When I started I was so afraid and crawled into the class room, sitting as near the door I could get, so I could run away without being noticed.
The things that I learned in that class room caused me to stay and want more. God knew just what I needed at that time and brought me to the right class. No other class would of done it for me but by some miracle I ended up in the right class room, and ironically enough they were talking about our insecurities. I had no idea what they were going to talk about when I was sitting there so insecure. That class was to me just the first step that I needed to take so I took it. It was as if the teacher was talking to me. It kept me in my seat and coming for more for the next 3 years. I graduated and I found that when you let God take control, the end of something is so much better than the beginning. Our scripture is found in Ecclesiastes 7:8. It says
"The end of a thing is better than it’s beginning, and the patient in spirit is better than the proud in spirit."
When you are afraid to start something that God has asked you to do, be patient. Surrender your self will and let Him lead you step by step. Then you will find that your insecurities will no longer control you. Do not be too proud to see something through because you are afraid you might fail. God will stay with you til the end. That is His promise.